I'll Watch the Sunrise

Shoes/ UNIF, Top/ Dimepiece, Skirt/ Sun Thrift, Shawl/ Gift

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So the weather has been so shit lately that I have had to resort to taking pictures inside. Since I live in student halls, I don't have a lot of good inside space to take pictures, so I photoshopped the background. The more I look at these pictures, the funnier I think they are. The pictures in the background were found via Geocities.jp. I think they are naturally really beautiful, so when I photoshop my "serious" lookbook pictures it just makes me laugh because I am totally ruining the beauty of the colorful snow.

Aside from the comical photoshop job, this outfit is not appropriate for the weather, so I overdressed it with a long faux fur overcoat (not pictured). I looked like the Gruffalo, in the best way possible. This top is Dimepiece and it is falling apart as you can tell (maybe) by the logo. I kind of think it looks cool, but at the same time, it bothers me a little, because it was a little pricey and I haven't worn it that much. I would expect better quality. This skirt is one of my favorites, I got it at sun thrift. I love how sparkly it is. The faux fur shawl I am wearing was a christmas gift from my grandma. It's really soft and it is pretty warm. Lastly I am wearing my UNIF cross trainer highs. I can't get enough of platform shoes. These shoes are probably my favorite. UNIF is really up on their shoe game.

Everyday it seems like my hair changes colors. I really don't understand what is going on with it, but I really do like the way it looks. I don't understand how blue turns into pink and purple, but it does make it easier to wear lipstick!

Music- Sleigh Bells, Infinity Guitars

Who Framed Roger Rabbit

Coat/ Portabello Market, Top/ Jetrag, shoes/ UNIF

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My mom is visiting me this month, so I took her to the Portabello market. I found this gem of a coat. I don't know if you can tell but the image on the coat is Roger and Jessica Rabbit from "Who Framed Roger Rabbit" It looks/feels like a blanket, which is actually a great thing because it has gotten a lot colder lately. I can't hang. It isn't in the negatives, but my coldest winter was 60 degrees in Oakland. Ah, I miss California.

I got these shoes for christmas, and they are too big, but I can wear 3 pairs of socks with them and then they actually fit, so thats why my ankles look super thick. I am obsessed with these shoes, and I wanted them sooo badly. I didn't return them to get the proper size because it took forever to get to my house and they arrived right when I was about to go back to London, so I just said fuck it, and took them. I plan to fix the inside, but putting in another insole, so I don't have to wear a massive amount of socks with them.

I feel as if I have been wearing a lot of black lately, and I am not really into it. Everyone in London wears mostly black, or grey. I think it is because of the gloomy weather. I like colorful clothing though because it makes me feel so much happier. Since it is cold, I have to wear a bunch of different tights, and I only have black tights, so that always throws off a colorful outfit. For now I am a little stuck with that, but I'll figure it out soon enough.

Music- Mac DeMarco, Ode to Viceroy

~*BB I'M FABULOUS*~

Glasses/ UNIF Moody's, Vest/ DIY, Shirt/ UNIF, Skirt/ American Apparel, Shoes/ Jeffrey Campbell

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I feel super brandalicious in this post. I never really wear this many brands, but I was so excited about my newest purchases. I got these beautiful rainbow moodys for free because I bought this unif shirt during their moody promotion ~score~. The top is a little bit off white, so I had to wear something that was a little bit off white. I paired it with this American Apparel dress (but I wore it as a skirt) and it actually looked better than I expected. I then through this vest on. I started making this vest over the summer and I just finished it at the end of last term. Unfortunately it is winter and it is freezing, so I can't really wear this and make it look as cool as it would normally. I now endure real winters, unlike California, I can't hang. Taking this picture was pretty miserable, but it had to be done. Incase you can't tell, the back is entirely embroidered and it says "BB I'm Fabulous". Lastly I put on these beat up Jeffrey Campbell platform Oxfords. These were my first platform shoes, and I have loved them to pieces, but their time is almost up. It's really sad when you spend a lot of money on shoes that fall apart in a couple of years. When I start to make and sell shoes, I am going to make sure that they never break/ fall apart. If they ever do, it will be after like 20 years or something. Quality.

My mom got here today and I couldn't be happier. I have a lot of really fun things that I am planning to do with her, one of them being a Harry Potter studio tour!

Music-Poolside... I wish.

Washed up

Skirt/ My mothers, Shirt/ Uniqlo, Shoes/ Cheap Monday

Jacket/ Bleached Vintage

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How are you doing today? I'm super excited because my mom is coming to visit me for a month starting tomorrow~ Insert heart eyes emoji~. I'm so happy that she is coming to see me. That is item one. Item 2 is, my 21st birthday is on friday! It's weird because 21 doesn't really mean the same thing over here that it does in the United States. I feel like 21 is a mile stone and it's the last crazy birthday where you get a specific privilege, like the ability to drink (in the US). Not that that stops anyone from drinking, but you know what I mean. Over here though, 21 means that your an adult and you should start calming down, and getting your shit together. A friend said to me the other day, that she was 21, she might as well be 30. I was confused to say the least. I'm really excited actually to turn 21. It seems so strange because it is just a number, but I guess I just feel good about it. I think my 21st year is going to wildly different than any other year I have ever lived.

Item 3. This outfit. I woke up this morning really wanting to wear my UNIF goner heels, so I put together this all black outfit. When I put on the shoes, it didn't look good with my tights, or any tights in general, and today was also a "walking a lot day" and I thought it would be stupid to wear different shoes and then just change my shoes when I got to school. That way it wouldn't be authentic. So I put on my cheap monday shoes, because they are all black, and I haven't worn them in ages. Since I didn't wear my unif shoes, and my outfit was relatively plain, I threw on this Bleached Vintage jacket that I had made a year ago. I never ended up being able to sell it, which is kind of a bummer. I miss having an etsy store. I think in the next couple of weeks I might start to put some stuff in that store. SOOO... Keep an eye out. My hair somehow made me look/feel like a poodle today.. Not super down, but hey, I survived.

Music- This video isn't very impressive with the visuals, but I love this band a whole lot.

Good Vibrations

I was going to post some pictures, because that is usually what this post is about. I usually love to post images because I feel like a picture is equal to 1,000 words, but today I am going to do something a little different. Since I have come back to London I have really been struggling with thoughts of myself and "who I am" vs "who I want to be". Image is something that for some reason is really throwing me. It never used to bother me, but I think living here, in London, it actually kind of does. Don't get me wrong, I love the way I dress and I really like having colorful hair, but it actually makes people afraid to talk to me. That kind of pisses me off, because I'm not the type of person to randomly go up to people and start talking to them. I'm not particularly shy, I just don't really know how to start a conversation with someone I've never met, once we start talking though, you won't be able to shut me up. I think most people are like that. It bums me out really, that no one really talks to me, and that leads me to kind of put myself down and then I feel the need to change. I go back and forth in my mind between standing out and fitting in, because by nature I want to be original and stand out but the loneliness is making me want to cave and fit in.



For the past week I've been peruse the interweb and finding things that have actually made me feel so much better. I am going to come out and say... *gulp*... I am a closet Miley Cyrus fan. I saw a interview with her conducted by Barbra Walters about her break up with Liam Hemsworth and the changes that she has gone through this past year. She, like most 20-21 year olds has had a huge amount of change this past year and people are scrutinizing her for it, and that is really stupid. I think because she is famous and in the public eye a lot, people forget that she is only 21 and that she is growing up. She is really just trying to find herself. The stuff she is doing is just stuff that 21 year olds do, and I can actually relate a lot.



I have changed so much more in the past two years than I have changed all through high school, which I think is saying a lot. Growing up, I think we all think that 20 is kind of old and you should really know who you are and what your about by then, but I'm 20 and I am more confused about life then I have ever been. There is so much self doubt and difficulties with adjusting to change and really trying to understand that you are still in the process of growing up. When you turn 13, there is a really dramatic change for teen girls, and the stuff you go through is a lot like the stuff you go through when your in your early 20s, of course it's more grown up, your not really dealing with puberty anymore.



In the interview with Miley, Barbra asked her if she was seeing anyone else, and she said she wasn't, but it's something that she struggles with because she thinks that guys that she likes wouldn't be into her, and she is a really big star right now, why wouldn't they be? That is a feeling that I have all the time. You think because your too "edgy" or something, that someone that you think is attractive won't think that your attractive. I want to blame it on societies beauty standards, but in reality that feeling comes from your own mind. I think when you have had your heart broken, the ability to love yourself kind of gets deflated, so the thought of anyone else loving you sounds impossible.



Today I was looking at The Style Rookie, and I came across a video of Tavi doing a talk at the Melbourne Writers convention. Being a Rookie fangirl, I started watching the hour long video. In the video she talked about an interview that she had with Rashida Jones in which they were talking about being a fangirl and Rashida said "When you idolize someone, you think they are totally amazing but what you don't realize is that the things you think are so amazing are just reflections of all the amazing things about you. When you love someone, Your the one doing the loving. Your the person who is great enough to give that love. It's not about the other person at all." This was possibly the best thing I have ever herd. I can't even tell you how good it felt to hear those words coming from Tavi's mouth. Being a young adult in my generation, I've noticed, there is a lot of negativity and there are feelings of not feeling good enough. When we don't feel good enough we naturally look up or idolize someone else via their looks, lifestyle or personality. It's important to really understand that the things your idolizing are just reflections of you. This also kind of made me feel better about being "original" not fitting in, standing out. So fuck what I said before, I need to be good enough for myself, and the rest will come.

Music- Important.

But I'm a Cheerleader!

Shirt/ American Apparel, Jumper/ (my moms) Vintage, Leggings/ Target, Shoes/ Y.R.U.

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So it's about time that I update my lookbook and my blog, as far as ootd posts go. I am so so in love with this jumper. I stole it from my mom. She went to Hollywood high from 1979-1981 and was a varsity cheerleader for her senior year, I think even her junior year she was a varsity cheerleader. This was her varsity sweater, and it conveniently says her name on the front. Whenever I wear this, I get called Sydni at least once. On the back it says Hollywood, which gets a lot of attention in London. I think it's really funny that I like this sweater so much, because I wouldn't have dared to be a cheerleader in high school. No disrespect against the cheerleaders, one of my best friends was a cheerleader, it just wasn't really my scene. ~N E WAY, one of my favorite things to wear with this jumper is this red white and blue floral button up shirt. I love florals, to state the obvious.

Lately I haven't really liked the way tights look with my outfits. I think it's because they are all black and everything I have been wearing lately has been really colorful, and black just cuts into it and it makes my outfit look like shit. Since I don't live in california anymore, I can't just not wear tights durning winter (so jealous of the weather in california right now). So I am in the market for some different tights, preferable thick beige tights, so it looks like I'm not wearing tights. I ruined this white leggings I am wearing today about 2 minutes ago when I was using ink to paint on a piece of leather... Of course that would happen. I guess that just teaches me not to wear all white when I'm working. Speaking of all white, do you like my new shoes? I got them for christmas, and I'm obsessed with them. I wanted to get them in all white so I could paint something really cool on them. I don't really know what to paint yet, but it will come to me soon.

Now to answer a question about my hair (most frequently asked question). I did not re-dye my hair purple. This just happened with washing. I dyed my hair two different colors of blue, using manic panic dye. The roots were dyed a darker color blue. Through washing my hair, this happened. I do really like it though, but I also loved the blue. Why can't colors just stay the color they say they are?

Music- SO, who is excited about the Coachella line up? I'm exited to see shlohmo, Rl Grimes, Arcade Fire, Little Dragon, Surfer Blood, Warpaint, disclosure, Blood Orange, Girl Talk, MGMT, Empire of the Sun, and a couple more gems. I need to look into more of the bands so I can see what I am getting myself into <3

Mood

Hey. This is why I have been M.I.A. These are mood boards that I have been making for my footwear course. I was only supposed to make five, but I had way to much fun making them. This month has been really difficult for me personally and I haven't had much time to really update my blog, and I am really sorry to all my readers. I wish I could update it every day like I used to, but I do not have a photographer anymore (I'm looking for one) because the only girl I knew in London that was good at taking pictures, moved back to America. So if you live in London (and your not creepy) and you are a photographer willing to take some pictures of me, shoot me an email!

N E WAY, here are my mood boards:



Music-I'm really excited to see arcade fire at Coachella.