Gone

Dress/ Sun Thrift, Shoes/ Cheap Monday, Glasses/ Giant Vintage Sunglasses

$up,
My moving date is rapidly approaching and I am getting really nervous. Actually I am more nervous then excited. I have met a couple of people online but a lot of them aren't going to my school. I don't really seem to have anything in common with a lot of them which is a little discouraging. I don't really understand why I am putting so much energy into being nervous about moving. I think I am giving it to much power over me (thats never a good thing).

Music- Love will tear us apart- J0y Division

Salvation Mountain p.1

Dress/ Sun Thrift Shoes/ Feeling Vague Vintage Sunglasses/ Giant Vintage Sunglasses

$up,
Yesterday I went to Salvation Mountain with my mom. We both aren't religious, I don't believe in god or that Jesus is the savior or whatever, but I do believe in love. Even though this site has a lot to do with religion I think it has a whole lot more to do with love. For those of you who have never been there of have even herd of it before, Its a really beautiful mountain that has been painted by Leonard Knight in Niland, California. Niland is near to Palm desert and the Salton Sea, so needless to say, it was crazy hot (113 degrees). I don't do well in hot weather (or cold weather) but I think I held it together pretty well. Going to Salvation Mountain was such a wonderful experience and I was so happy to go with my mom. We hiked to the top, and explored in all the little caves and rooms. It is an experience I will never forget and always cherish.


Music-Because- The Beatles, I love this song, and it feels right with these pictures. The video I thought was kind of interesting.

Fifty Over Five Clothing

$up,
A couple of weeks ago I did the styling for a friend on her photo shoot to launch her clothing company, Fifty Over Five Clothing. Her site is up and running and giving me goosebumps. Her jackets are super cool, one of a kind American Vintage style jackets with patches sewn on the back of the jackets. The patches are screen prints of really awesome artists work such as, Jordan Debney, Derek Perlman (Fucktard), Klaus Maza, Rachel Harris (The Creator), and Emily Bayer (Pixleporn). The line is for men and women, and I really think it looks great on both of them. Check out her store here, its really awesome. The blog portion shows some pictures taken by Derek Perlman (Fucktard) as a life style portion of people wearing the Fifty Over Five Clothing.

These are my favorites:


Favorites from the blog:
Don't forget to check out Fifty Over Five Clothing!

Maybellene

Dress/Play Clothes Shoes/ Sun Thrift

$up,
Last night was my Mom and my Grandma's birthday party. They had it at this really cool venue (I found for them) called Complete Actors Place. It was a 1950s and 1970s themed party. My gut told me to dress 70s, because it would be so easy and I wouldn't have to buy anything, but the side of my brain that likes to take risks was like, EVERYONE is going to dress 70s, DRESS 50s! So I did. I went to these shops on Magnolia in Burbank a couple of days ago and looked around a bunch of vintage shops, and landed on this dress. I got it from this super awesome store called Play Clothes, they have a great selection of vintage clothing from the 40s to the 80s. Their clothes are a little bit pricey, but all vintage is pricey. = It was labeled 1950s but I think its more of an early 60s dress because of the style and the placement of the zipper. I thought it was beautiful and I wanted to stray away from a costume. I knew that when people thought 50s, they would dress in a poodle skirt, or dress like something you would see in the movie Greece. I wanted to do more of a classy housewife of the 50s (I think I achieved that goal.). Going to all of those stores really made me miss buying authentic vintage pieces. In high school, I was a vintage junky. I was obsessed with the 60s and 70s (I was also a hippy). To bad I don't have enough money for that haha.

Music- In honor of my outfit, I am going to post some music from the 50s. Chuck Berry - Maybellene

Garden BB

Shirt/ Sun Thrift Skirt/ Jet Rag Shoes/ Etsy

$up,
I've been thinking a lot the past couple of days about love and relationships. I think movies and tv shows make us think that we need to have really dramatic relationships in order for them to be exciting. When you think of the pattern of every "chick flick" or "romantic movie" two people fall in love and they are usually opposites and they have this great relationship when its first starting out and then there is a problem and then they break up and then its a toss up at the end, they either get back together and accept that they are different, or they stay broken up (The more optimistic and happy endings are more popular.). I think this makes everyone think that when the going gets tough, you can just quit. The reality is that relationships can be really hard sometimes, but just because it is hard doesn't mean that it is worth throwing away. Back in the 1950s divorce was rare and kind of frowned upon, and I think that a lot of those people had issues with their spouses but they worked it through because they took vows to each other. On the other hand though, some times things don't work out and people are just wrong for each other. My parents divorced when I was 6 and I really think it was the best thing for both of them because I just wanted them to be happy. Along the lines of divorce, I was also thinking about my friends who's parents are divorced and they kinds of romantic relationships that they get involved with. To be quite honest, I think my friends who's parents are married get into romantic relationships that are really just not good. They get with people that treat them horribly and they just take it. My friends that have parents that are divorced get into relationships that they feel comfortable saying when they are not okay with something. They are not afraid to speak their mind, and that is something that I really respect. No one can read your mind, so if your upset about something, or your needs aren't getting met, you need to speak up. I know this may kind of sound all over the place, but I am just writing they way I think. I think I lost track of what I was saying. Oh, it seems that there always needs to be some kind of drama in relationships, like oh He's looking at other women, or He's emotionally unavailable or something of that nature. Why do we compare our lives and our relationships to the ones we see on tv or in movies? It is okay to have a drama free relationship with someone. Drama does not make something more exciting, love does. Love is the most exciting thing there is.


Music-No Doubt- Just a Girl, Love blasting this in my car!

Recap

I got my film from the past couple of weeks back today. So lets do a recap. Ryan, Lauren, Jessica, Natalie, Dylan, Gino and myself.
A coule of weeks ago we went to the closing night of Perversion (My dads goth club.) We snapped this picture in front of Gino's house before leaving. I wrote a post about this night a while back, READ IT. I love how everyone except for my brother is wearing platforms.
Ryan, Lauren and Zoe.
They are probably going to kill me for posting this picture on my blog, but I think it's really funny. This was the 4th of july, at a Mother Turf party. It was an interesting/weird experience at that place. There was a mixture of overly friendly people and then people that thought that they were too cool. I went there with Ryan and Lauren, but Lauren ran off in the first 5 minutes. If Gino wasn't there I don't think I would have had anyone to talk to. Ryan Perdew, the Donut slut.
We get late night donuts a lot just the two of us, but this time we went with Lauren and some of her friends. One of her friends bought a one way ticket to yack town, and the others were at the point were your just really drunk and tired and don't really have the capability to hold on a conversation. Some Models, and then Lola and Kyla and another Model.
I don't know why there is such a big gap from the 4th to this picture, BUT this is when I worked on the 50/5 photo shoot. I wanted to take a picture of the models but I think I was just to shy to take a picture, so I took this creepy stalker picture of the whole scene. I promise I used to be really good at taking pictures.. Barrett holding Adrian
Honestly I don't really understand how or why this happened. I think My eye piece on my camera is a lier. Adrian and Gino
This is when we went to my dads other club Blue Mondays. They had an industrial night one monday so we decided to go. I really don't like industrial music, but I really just wanted to go out and leave my house. Ryan
He wears this outfit a lot, its kinda funny. We went to venice with my mom and step family to meet up with my two aunts and their kids. My Aunt Krista was renting a house in Venice for the summer, and it was fucking sick actually. It was a block away from the clean part of venice beach, and the house was so beautiful. I think the house was haunted though (not chill). My other Aunt was visiting from New York with my Uncle and their super awesome daughter. She's 7 I believe. I don't get to see her that often so it was really nice to see them and see how much she has grown since the last time I saw her. I realized she is so completely camera shy! I couldn't figure out what hair dye to buy. I was torn between blue again, green or purple. In the end I went with purple which faded to pink, and thats where I'm at now.. Bummer the picture it blurry. I guess this is one of those pictures that looks better in your head than actually executed. My dad and I took a trip to the Downtown La Flea market last month and it was actually really awesome. If you live in the area, Its the next best thing to the Rose Bowl Swap Meet. I think I like the Rose Bowl a little more because you can bargain with the sellers. The Downtown Flea Market has really awesome stuff though, and I think it's a little more art and clothing oriented. I saw this artist and I was like "YES!" I had to capture the glory. Shannon and I
My friend Shannon came back from Greece. It seems like she was there all summer, but in reality she was only gone for a little over a month. She was my best friend all through high school, we don't have a whole lot in common anymore, but I love hanging out with her. She was back in town for like 5 days and then she went back to school, so we headed down to Venice, because thats what we did when we were younger. Lol, Nicole Me and Lauren
This is at a party at Gino's House. It was for his Uncle, but he was so nice to invite me and Lauren to join. Lauren wasn't there for to long though. I brought a friend from high school with me and it was actually a really good time. It was right after I dyed my hair purple, so its super bright and pretty This is me being a Venice Beach Street Rat.
I have noticed through this roll of film and others that I have had in the past, that I guess it has been a really slow summer. Last year and the year before, I was busy every day. I think this summer I chose to be by myself more, because of a couple of reasons. I know if you read my blog you have definitely read before that I felt that my friends and I have grown apart. The other reason is I think its more on a subconscious level, but I don't really want to get close to anyone, because I don't want any reason to want to stay here. It will make it so much easier for me to move if I am a strong individual. It has been slow though, I miss going out and having fun, but I just don't really have anyone to do it with. WELL at least I am only here for 11 more days... Holy shit